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...sigh... [24 Jun 2004|10:05pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

have you ever felt like you don't connect with your friends anymore? like one day you are the best of friends and you know each others secrets and then the next day they want to hang with someone else and they don't talk to you as much as they used to. that's exactly how i feel right now. alexis & catherine are all of a sudden not connecting with me. they want to hang with each other and they want me to be out of it. i'm not feeling sorry for myself but i feel really bad about it. its like when you finally like a guy (for instance) and you think that theres hope and you talk to him a lot and then he just doesn't talk to you and just rejects you. i've been through that too but it doesn't click to me that my best friends who i've known for most of my teenage years just don't bother to talk to me anymore. its difficult to understand. the last 3 nights i wrote some really depressing songs and i can't continue to feel that way. jake & dad wont help me feel better. they don't know what i'm going through and plus they are too busy. jake is doing his play & dad has to work til late at night. ellen isn't here for me to talk to (she went to Penn. to visit family) and the person who I could actually talk to is not my friend anymore. UGHHHHH!!!!!

why don't we all just DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!????????!!!!!!!!

thats all....
yay for depressing shit!
jsika

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...zzzz... [22 Jun 2004|09:48pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i wanted to update before bed.

so here it is:

we're moving into the new apartment in july. dad gets the key on the 12th so thats when we move in. we have to move all of it. becuase the new dude comes in that same day. its gonna be weird. but the week before we are going to put it all in boxes so it can be easier to move that way. hopefully.

thats all for now.
got to go zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
jsika

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..teary eyed... [20 Jun 2004|08:04pm]
...i'm teary eyed. i just saw the end of "Pretty In Pink with Molly Ringwald, Jon Cryer, and Andrew McCarthy! It rocked SOOO hard! You see Duckie is one of my heroes also Molly Ringwald is too! She is such a great actress and she is a great person too! Duckie is just a person people should be around all the time. Andrew McCarthy was a hot man back in his day! No wonder Andi falls in love with Blane in the movie! haha!

also...

I just came back from MI! Oh what its like to be home! I love it! I've missed everyone here! MI is nothing compared to AZ!

heres a list why:
1. My dad & Jake are here.
2. My life is here.
3. My friends are here.

In Michigan it can never be that way! Someone's always mad at me or hates me for something that i didn't do.

thats all for now.
jsika
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...tired... [19 Jun 2004|08:27pm]
i came back from vacation yesterday. we went to Mackinac. The island and the city. we also went to the upper peninsula. there was bad weather but overall it was kool. so today i was stuck at Tasha, Rocky, Erin, and Linda's b-day party. it was fun. there were asses there but it was fun. they had a Harry Potter theme so they had to create different potions by taking Pop Rocks and soda and watching it fizz! haha!

so yeah...

tomarrow morning i have to go catch a flight back to Tucson. we have to drive to Chicago though. so thats 2 hours give or take a few. i hope i dont' get stuck in between 2 old peeps. the last flight i was on i was stuck in between 2 of them and it was horrible. the old lady on my left was mean and the old man on my right was sleeping so loud that i could hear him through my headphones (and believe me i had them cranked up!). so keep your fingers crossed!

thats all for now.
jsika
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yet another quiz... [15 Jun 2004|06:29pm]
You are night, you are dark and mysterious, you
have more than likly been through some kind of
truma, depression. you have a creative mind,
and more than likly find peace enjoyment in
drawing, painting, writing. You are closed and
hidden away from people, and hide you emotions
behind a wall which you use on people. Try to
become more open, spread your creativity, you
have no idea of how many people there are out
there like you, exposing your art and yourself
can make other people come out, so many people
would look up to your for your courage and your
spirit, your not evil or bad, just
missunderstood, so get out there and show them
just what you are made of, don't worry about
what other people think, it's what you think
that really matters. Please rate this quiz!!!


What Element Would You Rule Over If You Were A Vampire?
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[15 Jun 2004|06:25pm]
Your dark and mysterious, and so is he, he hold
secrets and holds them tight, the shy badboy
has arrived. He walks up onto the pavement and
makes his way through the iron gate, you and
your friends curious eyes follow him, he's
heading towards the office, you and your
friends go through the gate heading for class,
buzzing with excitement. Who is this mysterious
stranger?, rate this quiz high and you will
find out in Teenage Vampires through the eyes
of the victum 2. The future awaits........


Teenage Vampires in the eyes of the victum 1, what will be your fate?. Not a quizz for the faint hearted (for girls, guy one will come soon or if you prefer you can take the quiz and just in you mind change it to a guy)
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[15 Jun 2004|06:15pm]
Pig Pen
You are Pig Pen!


Which Peanuts Character are You?
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YAY! Pig Pen! He rocks my SOCKS! haha!
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YAY! [12 Jun 2004|04:57pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I'm so happy! I went on Ebay to check out what kind of TBC stuff they had. This dude was selling the full script of TBC and it is signed by all 5 stars (Molly Ringwald, Judd Nelson, Anthony Michael Hall, Emilo Estevez, & Ally Sheedy)! It was only 21.50 too! I'm the highest bidder so far! Its so kool!!

so..

mom & I went shopping today! we went to the salvation army. i know what your thinking! "ewww! you shop there?!" and i say "yep!" i mean its not like i'm poor or anything but if you go to a second hand store you never know what you can find. like i was looking at the skirts and i found a real leather skirt! not my size but it was my moms size so i bought it anyways. i also bought a kool 80sish black skirt and this old navy lavender shirt that goes off the shoulder. its kool! when i go back to AZ i have to check out Buffalo Exchange. its awesome! all the college kids trade in their clothes there. so its gonna be a good find!

thats all for now!
jsika

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...ahh...the 80s... [11 Jun 2004|03:18pm]
[ mood | awake ]

today all they played on tv was ronald reagan's funeral. nancy looked so sad. duh she was sad but when they started going on the plane to Cali, she had 2 airforce dudes carrying her umbrella and hand.. she looked happy. thats sad. so yeah.

so..

i'm on this search for my personal style. since i'm going to be a freshman next year, i want to find a style i can stick with for the next 4 years. i love the 80s! i mean i LOVE the 80s. Molly Ringwald is my idol! lol. thats weird but true. all the 80s peoples dressed well. like in the movie "Sixteen Candles" Farmer Ted wore some kool shit. same with Duckie in "Pretty In Pink". i know i'm a dork but still i think they rock! same with Molly Ringwald! she is so kool and i love the way she dressed. the problem is that converses they wore back then are like $45 now. that's why i don't want to shop at the major stores. i'm going shopping with mom at the goodwill & salvation army. they have some good vintage shit there. it rocks! also in Tucson there is this cool place called Buffalo Exchange. i haven't been there but jake & david have and they think its kool. so i'm gonna go there.

i'll post some pics laterz!

thats all for now.
jsika

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[08 Jun 2004|10:41pm]
Theme songs of your life
by eponine
your name?
love song:dangerously in love - destinys child
depressing song:everybody hurts - R.E.M.
party song:boys of summer - the ataris
what-the-hell-ever song:ladder - joan osborne
your lifeperfect day - hoku
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!
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[08 Jun 2004|12:09pm]
nose: 0p98jiosdwolpi980-sd14
elbow: -p[;oiklmn jkoildxcsewopl;9o[-p;'
tongue: pinkzslipz14
chin: cvxuyjp;lgflosw54545t4
feet: oublcakuoz25
eyes closed and one finger: pinkcdlipc34
back of hand: piin ,xslip;x14
palm: p[;'oiklmnklxcxcplikcx2154
mouse: pinkslop-xd2154
wrist: 0pimn kl,dxcdsl;./oixc 2154

i think i'm mentally challenged. its supposed to be pinkxslipx14! haha
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Tongue..this is computer...Computer..this is tongue! [07 Jun 2004|03:35pm]
[ mood | sweating bullets! ]

Adrien Brody is so hot! I need to take a shower when i look at him. ::sigh:: thats all i can say! haha. but thats my new bg and icon! i'm thinking about getting a whole bunch of pics of Adrien and just start making icons of my own of him. i'm going to download paintshop and start doing that! its gonna be kool.

anyways, my eeg test was today. it wasn't as bad as it seems. it kinda went fast. i thought it wouldn't but it was an hour. time flies when you're asleep. haha. so..

thats all for now.
jsika

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[06 Jun 2004|05:23pm]
I'm convinced that i'm a vampire..




Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century
vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good
things in life, you posses a lot of classical
class, and follow that of the original
vampires, you have no shame in what you are,
infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't
have it any other way. Your wealth is
unspeakable and your way of luring people with
your mystical ways and looks is amazing, and
most people would often call you The
Seductress. Please rate this quiz!


What Kind Of Vampire Would You Be? (Cool answers, AND FOR GILRS UNLESS YOU ARE A CROSSDRESSER)!
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[06 Jun 2004|04:14pm]
pinkxslipx14's LJ stalker is kaed!
kaed is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also not very liked around here!


LiveJournal Username:


LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com


AHHH!! i have a stalker! and its my brother!

jsika
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[06 Jun 2004|11:41am]

Joe Strummer IS Love



yep he is love. haha. hes a kick ass rocker! RIP Joe Strummer!
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[06 Jun 2004|11:10am]
sigh.

for 2 days now i've been trying to write a song. i just can't think of anything. at least nothing that steve and ellen will like. since they are apart of the deadies. haha. i might have writers block but i've never had that before. it kinda hurts. but eventually i'll write something. not brilliant but something. i've also been trying to write the sheet music for it. ellen can't write music for her cello and i can so its kinda my responcibility ya know? its always jess' problem. honestly i don't really like the cello. its great in classical music but i've never tried it in rock music. if sydney wasn't a dog i'd ask her for help. i already did but the only thing she has to say is ::lick lick:: (she has a licking problem). so.. i don't have anyone to go to. god i wish music was easier than it looks. haha.

in other news..

ronald regan died yesterday. the sad thing is that i thought he was already dead! ya know the whole "i wanna try to kill a president thing" that happened. but i didn't know that the dude didn't actually succeed in doing so. and i was watching CNBC last night while they were doing news on his death. and kids younger than me were saying that Ronald Regan was a kool guy and a great president. they didn't even live when Regan was pres. so how can they know?

thats all
jsika
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[05 Jun 2004|07:22pm]
i just saw the new harry potter film. it was cool. but it reminds me of the 2nd lord of the rings in the way that its short and it ends at exactly where the rest of the story should start. ya know? its sounds confusing but its really not. haha. but anyways. the movie was good. the dude who played "Sirius Black" also oddly played "Sid Vicious" in the film "Sid & Nancy". and he also played a bad dude in Hannibal. so he's good at playing evil dudes. haha. that ron character annoys me though. for a wizard... hes a wimp. haha!

thats all for now.
jsika
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[04 Jun 2004|10:41am]

Katy is love.


katy rose rocks my socks! she is a great songwriter! ahh!! ::fan moment::
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I'M A CONSPIRACY NUT! woot woot! [04 Jun 2004|10:27am]
I am a Conspiracy Nut



Which America Hating Minority Are You?


Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons




in other words.. i'm paranoid!

GO ME!!
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[04 Jun 2004|09:25am]
UGHHHH!!!!!

i constantly keep applying for those stupid rating communities and i just thought that maybe.... they are stupid robots just waiting so they judge other people. ugh! i applied for one and i don't have a digital camera.. so what? i'm not rich. and honestly, i don't need one. the only reason they diss you is because you didn't post any pics. i don't even want to show myself on a community so people say that you look like shit and they don't want you in sight!!! its not that i'm bitching but i just cant stand it anymore!!! it fuckin ruins the point of livejournal communities. the point is that you can make friends of other people and they don't have to know what you look like. well thats the point to me.

so officially i am done with all that rating shit!!

thank you!

jsika
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